Thursday, 10 March 2011

Money trees, nice idea.

Life would be easy if money grew on trees, but life would be boring without the competition and determination to earn money and succeed.
I'm the type of person that uses the 11.11, rainbows and shooting star wishes, if I'm not lucky enough to use one of those I turn to Cosmic Ordering Service in hope that maybe some money will fall into my purse, but generally when I ask COS payday happens - unfortunately COS isn't so giving when it comes to money as its generally everyones wish... Sigh!
But when I really think about winning the lottery, as exciting and life changing as it sounds, I can't help but think that christmas and birthdays would be come boring, I know they aren't about what gifts you get and what you want, but the excitement tends to disappear when you can afford just about anything!
Then I start to think about all the training and hard work you have to do to get into that dream job, and my eyes start to haze over along with my brain. Why is everything such an effort now a days? As much as I'd adore to be a tv presenter, I can't help but feel a little inadequate when it comes to all the educating! I just want to get myself out into the dog eat dog world and be successful. This then takes me back to the idea of winning a lot of money.... Not what I want, but it's easier than debt and time spent in a lecture theatre right? Wrong I don't want it that easy, but I don't want it that hard! We humans are so hard to please, nothing will ever be good enough, because we always find something to moan about, which is why everything in life becomes about 5 times harder than it should be. I think I've come to find that there is no happy medium, just a personal desire to succeed which causes a drive in itself, a place where competition spurs and our inner strength is born. My 'inner strength' tends to have it's peaks and falls, which I guess I can call my weakness. Unless it's something I genuinely have a love for, then my heart doesn't want to stick to it, my head does, but my heart, no. With everything, whether its exercise, work, dieting or writing I tend to be most motivated when it becomes most inconvenient, like at 1am on a Thursday evening...
I may be an 18 year old working student, earning suitable money for my age in an education suitable for my future, yet I just have so much apathy towards my life right now, I'm living on a small island, with no hustle and bustle no drive or competition, surrounded by people wanting nothing but a family or pretty little house by the beach. Problem is I set myself up with high expectations and dreams that seem unrealistic and unreachable on this teanie little rock of earth. This certainly isn't the isle of dreams, well not for me anyway. London I suppose is where my love for life is. Being in a big city, surrounded by so much culture, so many different faces; being mugged by someone you aren't related to. Thats the problem with this Island, everywhere you go you are bound to bump into a familiar face, sure at times this is comforting and nice, but repetitiveness and seeing the same old faces day in day out it gets kind of dull. - i suppose I'm just moaning to moan, as I said we always find then worst in everything, i guess in this sense I'm no different.     

'i will never...'

 That saying :" I will never drink again", Yeah... does anyone actually stick to that? I promised myself about 2 weeks ago after waking up with a dry mouth, sore head and eyes that felt heavier than bricks that I would "never drink again" - Clearly I didn't really mean that!
Whilst getting ready for night out in our ever so boring and samey town, I cracked open a bottle of white. I specifically remember saying to myself, I'll only have glass or two, and won't drink until i'm out... Bet you can feel where this is heading huh?
Well, after getting ready and arriving at a friends, accompained by a lot of booze and alcohol themed games, it was clear to see I would not be making it out alive!
After a solid 2 hours of what we like to call 'pre-drinking' (which I used to presume was a glass or two, before laying on the shots) I was gone to say the least. - We arrived at the club just before midnight, and the drinking just didn't stop, I found myself wrapped around the pole, clearly thinking I was some sort of superstar pole dancer, Judging by my recently untagged pictures on the one and only Facebook.
The rest of my night is somewhat a blurr of faces and colours.
Waking up this morning was not something I felt I should be doing. My head was pounding, ears ringing... eyes like bricks. - I've been here before, I'm always welcomed with open arms!
After finally peeling myself out of bed I quickly found my laptop and got straight onto Facebook ready to piece together the night before...
I was pleasantly surprised at the state of myself, however I did feel obligied to untag some rather cringe worthy pole related photo's!
Needless to say I will not be drinking again...

Until Next week. ;)

Monday, 7 March 2011

Jessie J

A new budding talent, one of the Youtube phenomenons I had kept my eye on, a long with Bieber (though I'm not much of a fan) and many, many more!
I remember my cousin telling me to search Jessie J on YouTube about a year ago, after telling me she was one of the best musicians she'd ever heard, which is a lot coming from my cousin. I remember posting the video of her singing Mama Knows Best all over Facebook in absolute astonishment at her outrageously, incredible voice. - To me she was the upbeat Adele of our time.

I've loved this girl from day one, though some will very strongly disagree that she has any talent and automatically drop her into the mainstream pop bracket, she is so much more than that.
Truth be told when I heard her first single I was a little disappointed that her voice had been hidden under such a vocally easy song, because with a voice as powerful as hers I expected so much more, but the song definitely grew on me.
I'm not ashamed to admit my love for Jessie J, in fact I request her songs without fail every weekend and always listen to her, especially when I'm in a bad mood.
I see a lot of hate posted around Twitter for 'JJ', which has made me realise she is the new N-dubz, or Marmite, you either love or hate her, there is no happy medium with this newbie - but this will only make her stronger.
For those who aren't a fan have a listen to her voice stripped in a Live Lounge - no editing just her, then tell me she isn't talented.

Is Summer finally here?

Snap of the beach on my Little Island. x
 So, I keep waking up feeling a bit pants. Heavy eyes, lack of energy, cosy bed... you know the drill.
But these last few days all I have to do is open my blinds and in pours beautiful sunshine, which is a motivation to get out of bed in itself!
 I could never decide whether I preferred Winter or Summer (I've never liked Autumn or Spring, they don't count in my eyes) but waking up to that unfamiliar yellow circle in the sky has definitely made up my mind. I don't care if my birthday and Christmas fall in the Winter zone... Summer is definitely my favourite time of the year. I don't know if its the smell, or warmth Summer brings, but it definitely encourages the best in me to come out, my motivation's at its peak and my mood shoots right up to the happy bar.
- Now I may be waking up full of joy, buzzing around for what the day has to throw at me, but the most annoying thing is... Summer isn't quite here yet, I'm still wearing layers and tights with my skirts or shorts, which is disappointing to say the least. There's nothing worse than seeing the weather forecast as Sunny with highs of 3 degrees...
Maybe that's why I love the Summer season so much; because it plays hard to get, and we all know that makes things more exciting! Though I love the excitement, I really do wish it would stop playing me around and just arrive...
 The past three Summer's I've had, have been amazing, whether its because of where I am, who I'm with or the age I'm at, but I am more than determined to make this one the best yet... Though I shouldn't think it will be that hard considering the amount I've got planned already, bring it on is all I can say!